Music, heal my soul

I’ve been spending a lot of time writing music and creating visuals. At first it was for me. Because I wanted to create work I was proud of. Work I connected with and felt challenged by. But as I invested more of my heart, time, money, and energy into the music and the videos. I felt the need for validation.

Is it good? Is it good enough?

Who decides?

Someone told me — “as long as you like it, then it’s enough”.

But is it? We are in a time where we need validation and some even live for validation. It’s not healthy and I’m guilty of it as well. But how do we stop? I thought about quitting social media. But I need it for my job so that’s not an option. I thought about quitting my job but I love performing and I don’t know what else I’d do so that’s not an option either. But when the likes are low or the views are low I feel as if I’ve failed. The disappointment is overwhelming. They say it’s just the algorithm or it’s just too over saturated with content now. But it doesn’t make it better.

I need a different perspective, need to see it from another lens.

If I did my best, it’s enough.

If it makes me happy, it’s enough.

If it brightens the day for one other human being, it’s enough.

If you are reading this, know that you are enough.